“When I was in the darkest place…. All I could focus on and talk about was how bad I felt and how little I was sleeping. I felt like I had failed my son and because I had so many tools I felt like I should be feeling and doing better! I remember thinking I wonder if I will ever smile again and mean it… it was like all my sunshine (joy) was buried in deep clouds!
ALL of my “I am not good enough” stories took over my world… I am not a good enough mother or cook. I am not smart enough, I am not getting in shape fast enough, he is not sleeping through the night so I am not a good enough sleep trainer…. You name it I felt it.
The turning point was actually a summit Dr. Michelle Sands did years ago for Mommies over 35. I started to remember some of my previous training and tools. I started to feel HOPE.
Hope matters. Hope is a higher vibration than guilt, shame and fear. By thinking and talking about my struggles constantly, I was living in draining thoughts and energy. So, once I talked with Dr. Michelle and watched the summit, I felt INSPIRED and said over and over again, “I will find a way into her program. I will work with her. I will learn from her. I’d love to be friends with these doctors and healers.
Saying, I want to be on stage again turned into ‘I will be on stage again helping others heal. I want to use my voice to help others.’
Now, what I did not know at the time was I had started using my imagination to spark my creative visualizing. How could I get into the program? How could I start seeing myself as helping others?
My vision of myself changed; my identity, and therefore, my choices changed. My focus changed and I started working on being the mommy that not only helped my son and family, but other families. I imagined myself back on stage with a microphone, looking and feeling healthy and powerful.
Now, a few years later I am a speaker on a SUMMIT. I am very literally working alongside Dr. Michelle, and it is really a special honor to come full circle and BE a guest on her summit.
I deeply thank and honor Dr. MIchelle Sands and also my powerful mind for helping me create a new vision of my life.”